30

GAH!!! MY HEART FEELS DEAD!!!!
IM CRYING AND DYING INSIDE!!

Its just one guy.. how the hell does he hold my heart so tightly??

28

Ish.. I need time to gather myself..
I'm failing apart in the most pathetic matter..
Its depressing to see what im becoming or rather what i've become in the past month..

I dont like it here..
Its awfully quite and lonely..

I hate myself a lot these few days.. :(

26

How long was it till i updated this blog..
Never had a reason to..

Lately i just feel so dead inside..
Sleeping as early as possible..
Trying to avoid the truths of life..

Suddenly broke down again..
Watched the tears drip down my chin onto my shirt..
I dont know what im feeling..
It just sucks..

I need a hug..
I miss getting hugs from friends back in malaysia..
They gave the warmest hugs..
Now all i have is to comfort myself with lies..

Crying to myself again..
I want someone to talk to again..
This just sucks..
alot..

25

I honestly told myself i would be okay..
I would just let you go.. occupy myself..

Then here i am.. alone..
And my heart aches for you..

People says dont think so much..
The second i think about you,
My heart beats a different rhythm..
The heaviness.. is just unbearable..
And i have to urge to tell you i miss you..

Only to throw my phone aside,
and let the tears flow down my cheek.

24

Everyone is telling me to let go.. Even him..

My heart is broken.. My eyes tearing again...

I feel like just talking to someone that i can spill everything out to..

I dont like where my life is going..
I really dont..

i miss you so much penguin..

23

I feel like the stupid little boy waiting for you to reply at the end of the other line.

You are online all the time but only decide to reply me about 9 hours later..

Do you know how fucked up that feels???!!!!

22

Penguin not really replying my text now adays...
I know he is busy and all but im just quite bump..

When i dont text him and all he will text me good night and all..

Hmm.. Dunno la..

Should i continue texting him goodmornings?...