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I told myself that i am okay..
I am okay..
But..
Memories that i dread so much just comes back..

The memory of your reaching back and hugging me while i stood back to back with you when withdrew money just flashed into my mind today when i went out with kayson..

When you told me you werent feeling well and that you wished i was with you..

When we played with each other's hands in the crowded lift..

When you told me you loved me and miss me..

I dread that i cant maintain a thinking prospective.. Kayson gave me a pep talk that really made me feel okay and happy again.. But now it seems that im just drifting back to depression slowly.. Stupid as i am, i miss you again..

Toke a nap today because i felt sick.. Woke up with a splitting headache that is still pounding my head.. Found out that the plant that i has been taking care of just went missing which just makes me.. hate today..

I really want to be happy again..
I really want to..